Thanks, I fired my lawyer and will see my new lawyer tomorrow to discuss my case. I actually won my case, but now I have to wait 30 days to see if my former employer will appeal the decision. They may want to settle, but screw that...my medical bills are way too expensive and my future medical bills will drain the life out of me as well. Besides, I won the freakin case, why would I want to settle now?
It just sucks that my wife has to put up with the stress and worry over both my medical condition and the finances. I lost my job and career because of the reckless actions of a coworker. My back and neck are so screwed up I couldn't possibly work even a part time desk job! My only choice is to retire and also collect SSD. I was turned down for SSD and so I hired another attorney to help me with that claim as well.
Still, even if financially I am okay, I still have nothing to do that is either productive or satisfying and helps take my mind off my constant pain. I feel trapped in a broken body. I used to love the outdoors, hiking, camping, skiing, etc. Now, going to get my mail from my mailbox is like taking a hike. The medication has all but killed my colon and I already have a bladder disorder. For crying out loud, I'm only 44 years old, but I feel like I'm 95 years old. If wishes were true, all I would wish for is to take back that one moment n time where I was injured. I really enjoyed my job and was looking forward to future promotions. I still had about
13 years left before full retirement.
There are no wishes, no 'what ifs' and no turning back time. I have to believe there was a reason why this happened to me. A purpose to all my suffering. I just don't know, the more I hurt the more I wish it ends...that I end. I keep saying and this is true, 'if I were a horse, I would have been put out of my misery a long, long time ago'. Now tell me that is not the truth!
Please, someone help me make some sense of all this. Help me find a reason or a purpose to everything, anything...