I just wanted to formally introduce myself to the community here. My name is Jason. I am 28 years old and married living in Southern Illinois. I love my wife and family. Have great friends and try to surround myself with like minded individuals for good talks, laughs etc.
Like i said in my first post i was at work yesterday "googling" alcohol and anti depressents and stumbled upon this forum. I wasnt so much looking at how those two mixed as much as if it can have any harmful side effects mixing the two. got some good information and saw how caring strangers could be to someone they wuill probably never met in eithers lives.
i dont know if i am at the right place to share my experiences anony. because i havent been diagnosed with anything, but inside i dont feel right. i feel like an empty vessel at times and i cant be filled or sustain any type of temporary happiness. i know stress be a big contributor to depression (or so ive been told) and the past year and a half has just been a big stress sandwich almost on a daily to weekly basis.
i have moments where i just want to scream for help but cant find the inner strength to even muster up a whimper, and some days the slightest thing will send the tears to flow and i feel pathetic and beaten by life. my wife has been nothing but my rock and support but i feel ashamed to share these feelings with her because ive always been her steady place and her rock when she was at her lowest and ive never been comfortable with being vulnerable, especially to women.
i dont want to drag this on but i an sincerely excited to find a community where i can be myself and get help and not have to be myself at all.
i hope everyone has a great day and a wonderful weekend. the weather in the midwest is supposed to be fantastic.
p.s. i also think this guy is hilarious