hey, just updating, still staying with my friend but i went home today to see one of my pugs Lucy. Apparently she has lock jaw or whatever and its getting worse by the day. The vet said everything will be fine and we could just use a feeding tube on her. I love my dog, and ive been at the point with a feeding tube. I dont want Lucy to go day to day living off of it. Not the way it should be. So we've decided that the best thing to do would be to put her down.
As much as i dont want to i know its the best choice, its just really hard. I dont want to lose my pug. its always issue after issue and now its came to this. i just hope maybe sometime soon something positive happens. i dont know how much longer i can keep it together with everything going on.. right now im just sitting in my room looking out the back window watching her outside with her sister, soon its just going to be her..
This really isnt my year. woo 2012..
So i did manage to get out and to a friends house, im allowed to stay here for a while "month or 2 if needed" dont know how long ill stay. My mum knows where i am etc.. we arent telling my father where, just that im okay if he really cares.
Having my mum pack a few more things for me and she'll drop them off thankfully.
meh. long night.
That jerk texts me "I Am Sorry :(" i mean seriously if thats all dont bother making contact.
Another thing popped up, my mum asked about
this convention im suppose to go to in April 6-10th its in boston and its suppose to be 3 friends me and him. I dont know i guess ill try and put up with him, id rather deal with it then him stay home with my brother and sister without my mum.
Because if he acted up over a letter i dont know what he'd go over something else.
This is probably the 6-7th time he's majorly acted up.
Dont know what to think at the time being. Doesnt mix well with me hallucinating and hearing things that arent there.
Bleh. Ill check back in a while. Going to help around my friends house.
So my dad just got home from work and gave me a random letter and i asked if he read it then he got all pissed off and cursed me out, i told him to get out of my room if he's just going to be yelling, didnt want to put up with it. Then we started yelling back and forth he pretty much yelled at me to respect him i said ill respect him when he starts earning it then he jumped to smack me in the face but i moved, i said if he hit me id be outta here in 5 mins. Then said pretty much if i didnt treat him better he'd beat the *** out of me.
He's probably been drinking like an *** he is. My mother made a deal with him "because of extended family matters" that if he we're to ever hit her or my siblings and i that we we're gone. Dont even want to guess what she'd do to him if he hit us.
So he's *** yelling etc.. im about
to pack a bag of essentials and take off to a friends house for a couple of days seeing he cant control his self. Be best to get away with all of my problems i have going on anyway.
I dont know what to do. Getting out the door will be easy ill just leave a 6pack of beer for him to waste his *** life with stupid piece of dog waste.
i just cant wait to get admitted to vtcc i really need help, otherwise things are going to just get much worse.
Post Edited (David-M) : 3/27/2012 1:04:09 PM (GMT-6)