#update++ Things just try to get me down. one after another.

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David Martin
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   Posted 3/22/2012 6:48 PM (GMT -6)   
hey, just updating, still staying with my friend but i went home today to see one of my pugs Lucy. Apparently she has lock jaw or whatever and its getting worse by the day. The vet said everything will be fine and we could just use a feeding tube on her. I love my dog, and ive been at the point with a feeding tube. I dont want Lucy to go day to day living off of it. Not the way it should be. So we've decided that the best thing to do would be to put her down.

As much as i dont want to i know its the best choice, its just really hard. I dont want to lose my pug. its always issue after issue and now its came to this. i just hope maybe sometime soon something positive happens. i dont know how much longer i can keep it together with everything going on.. right now im just sitting in my room looking out the back window watching her outside with her sister, soon its just going to be her..
This really isnt my year. woo 2012..





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So i did manage to get out and to a friends house, im allowed to stay here for a while "month or 2 if needed" dont know how long ill stay. My mum knows where i am etc.. we arent telling my father where, just that im okay if he really cares.

Having my mum pack a few more things for me and she'll drop them off thankfully.

meh. long night.


That jerk texts me "I Am Sorry :(" i mean seriously if thats all dont bother making contact.


Another thing popped up, my mum asked about this convention im suppose to go to in April 6-10th its in boston and its suppose to be 3 friends me and him. I dont know i guess ill try and put up with him, id rather deal with it then him stay home with my brother and sister without my mum.

Because if he acted up over a letter i dont know what he'd go over something else.

This is probably the 6-7th time he's majorly acted up.
Dont know what to think at the time being. Doesnt mix well with me hallucinating and hearing things that arent there.
Bleh. Ill check back in a while. Going to help around my friends house.

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So my dad just got home from work and gave me a random letter and i asked if he read it then he got all pissed off and cursed me out, i told him to get out of my room if he's just going to be yelling, didnt want to put up with it. Then we started yelling back and forth he pretty much yelled at me to respect him i said ill respect him when he starts earning it then he jumped to smack me in the face but i moved, i said if he hit me id be outta here in 5 mins. Then said pretty much if i didnt treat him better he'd beat the *** out of me.

He's probably been drinking like an *** he is. My mother made a deal with him "because of extended family matters" that if he we're to ever hit her or my siblings and i that we we're gone. Dont even want to guess what she'd do to him if he hit us.


So he's *** yelling etc.. im about to pack a bag of essentials and take off to a friends house for a couple of days seeing he cant control his self. Be best to get away with all of my problems i have going on anyway.


I dont know what to do. Getting out the door will be easy ill just leave a 6pack of beer for him to waste his *** life with stupid piece of dog waste.


i just cant wait to get admitted to vtcc i really need help, otherwise things are going to just get much worse.


Sorry i guess this is just a strong vent or something.. And i blanked out certain words but if the admin/mods think it should be revised to fit terms of use please fill free to and sorry if it violated any.

Post Edited (David-M) : 3/27/2012 1:04:09 PM (GMT-6)


getting by
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   Posted 3/23/2012 7:51 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi David,

I am sorry you are in such a violent atmosphere. I hope you do find a place to stay. It sounds like your father has some serious issues. I hope that you get the help you need so you can live a peaceful life like you want to. Keep posting here, it really helps to talk about it. How old are you?

Hugs, Karen
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Chartreux
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   Posted 3/23/2012 9:05 AM (GMT -6)   
I hope you got away to your friends house and from there you need
to see if you can call your Mother...children should not have to be be abused
or made to go thru it, so do tell your Mother, sounds like your Mother can handle this
and she should know, I hope things get better for you....seek out counseling at school
and many many well wishes to you, please keep us posted as we do care...

David Martin
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   Posted 3/23/2012 10:27 AM (GMT -6)   
@Karen, 17. about to graduate in a month.

@Chartreux, Thanks i did and i texted my mum what happened "my side of it atleast" she said he was "sorry" but i dont care if he really is or not. Shes rather heated still that he threatened to beat me. >.>
Adam, 17. Birthday Sept. 30.

Diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis between 05-06. I have UC but its no more, i think. I had surgery May 25 to remove my colon. 2nd surgery Aug. 31 surgery to reconnect to J-pouch. 3rd surgery was on Dec. 7

getting by
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   Posted 3/23/2012 10:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Adam,

I am glad that you have a place to go when your father is acting this way. Nobody deserves to live in fear of getting beaten. I hope that things settle down for you at home. Fortunately you are close to 18 and then you can leave the situation if you choose to.

Keep posting, know that we all care about you and want you to feel safe and happy.

Hugs, Karen
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bayoub2
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   Posted 3/23/2012 4:57 PM (GMT -6)   
Welcome Adam

Sorry you have to be here but glad to welcome you.

I grew up with an alcolholic father, and it is rough. They can go from sweet to violent in a new york second. He was a good guy when sober and meaner than a snake when loaded.

You did the right thing by getting out, at least for awhile. Drunks and abusers always say "sorry, it won't happen again" but usually it does.

I feel for you and I hope that you can get out on your own soon...please let us know how things are going for you..we do care

Best of luck
Maggie
"We never realize how strong we are, until being strong is the only thing left"
Major Depressive Disorder, ptsd, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, l3/4, L4/5 gone, bursitis arthritis sciatica

seroquel, hydrocodone clonazepam norvasc multi vitamin and magnesium

Chartreux
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   Posted 3/26/2012 11:36 AM (GMT -6)   
I was 17 when I graduated from High School, it can be hard to graduate young,
do you have plans for College? or University? I hope so, that way maybe you can get into a dorm room and away
from your family...Remember you do have things to look forward to and hopefully a
new chapter in your life will start after graduation....Way to go that you got thru this
much, congrats to you and look forward to your graduation with pride hun, you did good....
We all here care and hope you don't have to spend to much time with your Father...
many well wishes and do keep us posted...
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David Martin
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   Posted 3/28/2012 1:02 AM (GMT -6)   
@Chartreux
yes i have plans in place, but i wont be going to far that it requires me to rent a place for a while. Going to a community college for 2 years then switching over to VCU.

I dont want the idea that my father is a bad person, he just loses it sometimes, he's still a great person to me but sometimes i just feel i need a break from everything and thats what im doing now, taking a break away from the family.

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All i really have these days anymore are memories. But even with memories they slowly fade out with time.
Adam, 17. Birthday Sept. 30.

Diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis between 05-06. I have UC but its no more, i think. I had surgery May 25 to remove my colon. 2nd surgery Aug. 31 surgery to reconnect to J-pouch. 3rd surgery was on Dec. 7
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