And welcome to the depression forum. I did read your post. I am sorry for all that you are going through. It must be so difficult for you at this time. but you sound very brave. I do have to say living alone can be hard. I don't disagree with what you want. I spend a lot of time alone, but I don't have to. When you have to, it is different. So think twice about that. It is nice to have your privacy, but it is also nice to have other people around. You may get lonely. But try it and see for yourself how it goes, you may enjoy it too.
I am sorry you lost your counselor. It is hard finding a new one that you can click with. Maybe in time she will come back and you can see her again. I am sorry for what happend to her daughter. It must be horrible.
Keep posting. You were very brave to tell your story. The forum has been a little slow, but it is picking up. But if you don'n't get a lot responses, don't get discouraged. I think people are just outside in the weather and slow on posting.
Keep your chin up. One day at a time too.
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