I am sorry for the pain you are suffering.
Is there a doctor who is in-network and could do the follow-up surgery, if it turns out that you cannot go to the other doctor? Might be good to know that, as a backup option.
In the meantime, the doctors should be able to help address your pain. If your current doctors cannot do that, maybe you could see a doctor who specializes in pain management or a physiatrist?
By the way, I am a grown man and sometimes I cry. I am not embarassed about that. Maybe it is not consistent with the macho cowboy image. But so be it.
I hope you find peace and healing.
Best wishes, Medved
Post Edited (medved) : 3/24/2012 7:08:09 PM (GMT-6)