Lately I've been wondering if I have depression, but I think it's because I want to be diagnosed with depression. The reason I want this is because I want a reason to feel the way I do. I thought about
seeing someone professional about
it but I just feel that my issues are worthless and that I would be wasting their time when they could be helping some one with actual problems. I feel like I would just be wasting your time now just by making you read this.
I have a good life and I'm glad for it but I'm not happy with myself. I've been drinking a lot recently and it seems to be getting worse. I'm drinking as I'm writing this. I've been drinking at college and spend most nights drinking whisky on my own. At first I used to drink so my mind wouldn't over analyse everything but now I like the thought that drinking too much isn't good for me. However, the next morning it makes me feel more crap about
myself but I still do the same later that night.
I have little motivation in things I do. I don't enjoy college anymore and I just feel so excluded from everyone when I am there.
I don't know. I feel like I'm being pathetic by being like this as there is nothing wrong with my life. What do you guys think?
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 3/25/2012 6:07:54 PM (GMT-6)