Just want to quit everything

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Alaskah
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   Posted 4/1/2012 9:16 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello...I haven't posted in here in a little while. Things have really been building up inside of me and I don't know how much more I can take. I've recently been coming off of a number of medications (3 high dosage antibiotics for suspected Lyme disease, which I don't believe I have), including Zoloft. I've been on Zoloft in the past and quit cold-turkey with no problem, but it didn't go so well this time. My doctor told me it would take 3 months to wean off the drug, which I thought sounded too long, it was making me gain weight, it was an added expense, and was not making me feel better, so I just quit. For the past 2 weeks I've been getting these bizarre waves throughout my body, like dizzy spells or waves of weakness that make me nearly collapse. As soon as they come, they're gone. I read a bit on this type of withdrawal symptom and I should only experience it for another week or two. I feel like I'm high when I'm at work because of it, but when I'm sitting down I am fine.

Aside from the drug changes, I am hating my job more than ever. I have managers talking down to me, like I'm not a real lead (supervisor), and they talk to me like I'm stupid. I can't handle being disrespected daily like this. I know that a lot of employers are like this, but it has not been this bad at other stores I've worked at. It's like I'm in high school again - I was an easy target back then because I was quiet, and now it's starting again.

I also cannot handle living at home with my parents anymore, but cannot really afford to move out. I find myself thinking about doing something that we cannot discuss on here. But I will not go to counseling - counseling is not for everyone, and it will only add more stress (spending time and money with no relief).

I am up to my eyeballs in student loan debt, I have a car loan, and other bills...I do have great credit, but my income isn't enough for me to get my own place and I would still like to at least try to apply to graduate school in the next year or two. But I don't see myself getting in and finishing a graduate degree. Everything just seems so hopeless. Everyday I think about writing my letter of resignation, even though I've been applying for other jobs and have had no luck. My life is truly empty and I have no one to talk to about it. I screw up everything, and people just see me as the weird quiet girl.

That's the end of my rant for now. Now really sure what kind of responses I'm looking for...I guess I just needed to vent this somewhere rather than keep bottling it up.

Post Edited (Alaskah) : 4/2/2012 7:48:37 PM (GMT-6)


Jim1969
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   Posted 4/2/2012 4:05 AM (GMT -6)   
One thing I learned a long time ago is that the only way to stop the class bully is to stand up for yourself.

In your case I suggest the next time someone talks down at you I would look them straight in the eye and tell that person that while you appreciate any suggestions, guidance, etc as to what needs to be done and how to do it better as it pertains to your job you expect to be treated with respect.

As far as that assistant goes who was messaging you I really think you need to have a talk with him and tell him that you do not understand what his problem is and that you are tired of him treating you like he has been.

In both cases give it a little time, a week or so, and if things do not get better then give serious thought to going to the store manager unless he is part of the problem and if he is then contact either his supervisor or corporate human resources and let them know what is going on. In the meantime I would carry a little notebook around and document every case of these managers creating a hostile work place for you so if you do have to report things you can cite specific dates, times, and what happened.
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Chartreux
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   Posted 4/2/2012 10:28 AM (GMT -6)   
I agree with Jim, you need to let the other co-workers know that you deserve respect and
will report any future miss conduct...That should stop some of that and keep on sending out those
resumes, keep positive that something better is out there for you and you will find it...

I do think you might have come off your medicine to fast, but hopefully the side effects won't last much longer...

Keep us posted we do care...thinking of you...
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Alaskah
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   Posted 4/2/2012 7:47 PM (GMT -6)   
The problem is that they're mostly all buddies with the store manager...they have done so many illegal things there and I reported many of them to corporate HR, but nothing ever comes of it.

I did get a call today about a job I applied for, so maybe something will come of that.

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   Posted 4/2/2012 7:59 PM (GMT -6)   
I am glad that you got that call. Do you think you are going to take the other job? It could be a way of getting out of that environment. I wish you the best Alaskah...

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Alaskah
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   Posted 4/2/2012 10:12 PM (GMT -6)   
It sounds like a temp-to-hire situation, so I would need to see how likely I'd be hired permanently and how long the assignment would be if I remain a temp. I should hear back in a day or two.

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   Posted 4/3/2012 7:01 AM (GMT -6)   
I hope that it is a good job and that you like it. Even if it isn't permanent. It could still be a way to get your foot in the door for better imployment. I really and truly hope that it works out. Keep us posted as to how things are going.

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Alaskah
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   Posted 4/3/2012 7:19 PM (GMT -6)   
I got a call back today to confirm an interview for Thursday. They told me the range of pay depending on experience, which is at a minimum the same as I make now, or it could be a few dollars per hour more. It's the same distance from my home, so I would lose nothing by taking it (other than a semi-hostile work environment). I'm considering, if I get/take the job, staying at my current job as a part-time cashier. They can only reduce my pay up to 20%, so it'd be a pretty well-paying part-time job on top of the full-time one, and I'd only really interact with the cashier lead (who I like and who is respectful, so I could handle working for her).

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   Posted 4/3/2012 8:29 PM (GMT -6)   
Gosh that sounds like a good plan. I think you got something going here. I hope that it all works out for you. Take the job. Nothing to lose...

Hugs, Karen
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