Once you see your psychiatrist and get back on meds, I think you will be fine. I did notice that you were on meds before and you didn't see the doc for them because you didn't have time. You have to make time for yourself and take care of yourself and a part of that is taking your meds. I am sorry that the last ones that you tried didn't work out. Make sure to tell the psychiatrist what you have tried and how it worked for you. It is very important and can save you from trying a bunch of meds that don't work. There are many of them out there.
I would mention the anxiety and the problems that it seems to be causing you with your relationship. I have found a great way to relieve anxiety is to take life one day at a time. I find living in the moment keeps me from a lot of worry about the past and future. I don't question how I feel because I know how I feel at that very moment. You could be over thinking things and that could be causing you the excess anxiety.
Do keep posting. I hope that you get things sorted out soon. Talk to your therapist about all that you have written here. Maybe make a copy of it and read it to them. It is your feelings and it is important for them to know how you are thinking.
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