Am I just not Pathetic?

So i'm 22 years old, working full time and going to college full time. I have a wonderful family and an amazing boyfriend who has been there for me through all these times of ups and downs. He has always listened and taken every insult and anger rage that i had one day and then all the love I had to give the second day. My friends are amazing and I have such an amazing life and am very successful. But then there is the depression.

I've had it for 3 or 4 years now and have had GAD all my life. So the mixture pretty much sucks...It wasn't until 5 months ago that I was put on Sertraline and then 3 months later, Welbutrin. And i feel like neither is working! I have had my doses uped and they work for a couple weeks then i'm down again. What is wrong with me?

For the first time i actually had a plan to  a couple weeks ago and as i'm laying in bed trying to get the courage to grab the, my dog was cuddling with me and I realized that she was the one who actually needed me and that I couldn't go through with it. How terrible is that? I have such great people in my life who love me and the only thing that stopped me from killing myself was my dog.

But then today i'm back down in a dark hole and its hard to talk to these great people in my life because they don't understand and I just want it to be gone and I want to be happy but idk how i can! I try everthing

C@mren,

Have you thought about trying different meds? Maybe these ones just aren't right for you. Especially if they are not helping. I had a mood stabilizer added to the mix and it has really helped a lot. I take pristiq, abilify and xanax. The xanax is for anxiety.

Oh by the way, welcome to the forum. I am glad that you have joined us.

Take care. I hope that you do feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen

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I agree with Karen. There is a good chance that you are not on the right medication(s).

Also if you are not seeing a therapist you should seriously consider it. A good one can help you sort through things, put things in proper perspective, etc.

Everyone needs something to hold onto, to make it possible to keep going no matter how tough the going may get. At this point does it really matter what that something is for you? The important thing is having something right now regardless if it is a person, a dog, or a stuffed monkey.

Once you get on the right medicines and everything and start getting your emotional legs back under you better you will find other things to add to that motivation to keep going.

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