Six days can feel like an eternity when we are in the place that you are just atm. Just as I have to break my housework down into little bits and do it one section at a time, I have to break my time down. about
15 years ago I went through the most insane amount of suicidality, alone. I really didn't know when it was going to end. I broke it down into 5min compartments. When I got through one 5min segment, I told myself I could get through the next 5min segment, and I did. For me I had to ring crisis lines very frequently to help make it through. (If they benefit you, use them. If they don't benefit you, don't use them). I did that for two weeks until I got through. While it's not easy and it is extraordinarily painful, it is possible to pull through.
Believe it or not, things are actually going to get better very soon. The degree of your pain is so high that it may make feel like an eternity, but help is on its way. The reason it is on its way is because of your actions and you should be feeling very proud of yourself. I know that was not an easy call to make. Well done. Just know you deserve help. There is nothing wrong with getting the help we need. It is actually a brave thing to do.
So how else to get through the next six days?
* Possibly think about
other crises that you have experienced and pulled through in the past. Muster up confidence in your ability to pull through. You can do this!!!
* Distract yourself. Do what you can to soothe yourself.
- Listen to upbeat music, listen to soothing music, don't listen to sad songs at this time.
- Think about
what smells you like - mint? cooking smells - roast?
cookies? aftershave? surround yourself with smell that feel good.
- Look at what makes you feel good - landscape settings? sunsets? children playing in the street? clouds in the sky? cars? motors? planes?
- Enjoy the tastes you like - sweet, sour, bitter, savory, fatty, favourite meal, fresh fruit and vegetable - lollies or candy.
- Enjoy skin sensations - massage? bath? footspa? footmassager? lying/sitting in the sun/breeze? being warm/cool?
* Use Coping Thoughts
"I will get through this"
"I will find what works"
"I will get this managed"
"I will get my life back"
"This is a hard time and it will pass"
"It's okay to feel bad, I am not a bad person just because I have painful thoughts and feelings"
"I'm on the road to healing now"
"Criticising myself is not going to help right now. I've got to be my best friend right now"
* Try to engage in pleasant activities
- Try to engage in the hobbies you have loved in the past
- You might like to watch a good movie, go watch a sporting game
- You might like to place you always enjoy and feel your best
* Other tips
- Keep busy as much as you can - play online games, watch tv at times most debilitated.
- Try to think of one small thing you can do for someone else as a gift or a surprise
- Make a list of the good things in your life despite your illness (eg. wife, home, family, fresh air, water, electricity, sewerage, political freedom, special possessions etc (it's your list it has to come from you)
- Read books or watch movies with the main character living the kind of life you would like to have
- Read or watch comedy
- Spontaneously smile and laugh to release endorphins into your blood
Also memory problems are very common with depression - please try not to fret too much because your memory will come back, as good as ever, once you get on the right meds at the right dose.