So Sorry you have such strong emotions. I was abused by my entire family. Counsuling helps.
If you do not have funds. Try clinics, help centers at school if you are attending. If working check your health plan.
Check the local hospitals for workshops and support groups.
Be proactive for yourself, no one else will take care of you but YOU. and keep posting.
Kabir says: "Student tell me, what is God? He is the breath inside the breath". from the poem Breath.
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain; raynauds;complex PTSD; MDD