Courtney and Karen,
I think I handled it well too. It is so hard for me when a guy is nice to me, even in this case when I just thought he wanted to be friends and study history together. I feel good about myself because (I thought) he enjoyed my company. He still has been texting me and I feel guilty even doing this. Like I said, I am not good at telling people to "buzz off". I am way too nice and I never want to hurt anyone.
Last night we were both drunk and he was texting me things like, "would you drink with me if I was back at the dorm?" and I said "I don't think so.." and then he said something like, "Tell me what would happen if we drank together" and I just stopped texting him. I feel so uncomfortable and he is such a "charmer". And I am so naive and unable to say, "Leave me alone".
Honestly, I think he is a funny guy and I would like to be just friends with him, which I told him, but I don't think he is getting the hint. I do not want to put myself in a situation where I am alone with him or him and his friends, and drinking.
Yes, the drinking age is 21 here. My fake has worked everytime I used it and we look pretty similar. I know it is probably bad that I use it but a lot of my friends have fakes and I figure I will only use it for a little more than 1 year. Sometimes I do worry about getting caught but like I said, I have never been caught and it is fun for me to be with my friends. I do not go out NEARLY as much as I did in high school and I am glad for that. It is just a "once in a while thing".
I do hang out with my friends in other ways. And I enjoy this too. My friends and I go shopping a lot (even though I am a broke college student). I am trying to cut back on spending but it is hard because I pay for everything myself for the most part. (At least not medical bills, YIKES).
Also, I love coffee! My friends and I sometimes go to the coffee shop at my college and I enjoy doing this too.
I think I will handle my finals well too but it is just stressing me out a lot right now. I think about how much I have to do and my mind feels like it is running a marathon!!
I really do miss my ex a lot. It feels like he died or something. We do not speak and I find myself tearing up lately when I think about him but I try to think of something else... I watched "Eat, Pray, Love" the other day and the girl in the movie has some significant other she misses. A friend of her gives her some advice and I really like it, he said, "So miss him. Send him some love and miss him. Then drop it." So whenever I miss him, I let myself for a little just think of him and "send him love" so to say. And then I drop it. It helps a lot.
Thanks for listening to my rambling. It actually does really help to let it all out and have people truly read it and understand. So thank you.