Great question! Randy gave you some great advice.
When my anti-d REALLY started working, I forgot to take it frequently. That's how I knew I was doing really better. I did find that I was more able to 'stand up for myself'. Prior to treatment . . . I would much prefer doing ANYTHING other than confront someone. Now I can carefully engage in some controversy. I don't wear a 'doormat' sign anymore.
But . . . I remember being joyful as part of my basic personaity. Did you tend to be joyful before depression?? If not, you may need to 'learn' joy.
In His Grip,
UCTD (Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease), Hashimoto's, High BP, GI Inflamation, Diverticuloses
Plaquenil, RX Motrin, Lexapro, Amitriptylene, Salagen, Lotrel