I am 38 years old and have always been a very outgoing, fun loving person. That all changed last year when I had a breakdown at work and my doctor took me off work and since then things have seem worse I am more depressed, stay in bed alot, cry alot. We have tried so many different medicines I am not even sure which ones I have tried and ones I have not anymore. I have been taking effexor xr which I have been taking since the birth of my son ( 10 years now ) I am also on a new medicine for about
a week now Lexapro 10 mg. I want out of this hell. I am married and have a wonderful son. My husband is really understanding but I feel is getting tired of the illness. It really seems to have taken a toll on my family, myself. I don't do things I have always enjoyed. I think alot of my depression is due to weight gain I haved gained at least 60 pounds and feel disgusting. I want to excerise but to depressed to do it. I don't love myself and how can I expect anyone else to love me if I feel worthless, fat, ugly and depressed. I don't want to lose my wonderful family, friends, life due to this illness. My worst fear is that it will effect my son and then I will never forgive myself. I feel like I am in the darkest place I have ever been and do not know how to get out. I feel like I am not living just going throught the motions of everyday. I will take any suggestions. It has effected the person I used to be and the person I am. Please help.