Hey PMA. Don't be sorry to post. That is what HW exists for! First, you should realize that even if you "feel worthless", in fact you are not worthless. It is clear from your posts here that you are an intelligent, thoughful person. So it is just a matter of how to make yourself more happy and fulfilled. One thing to try, if you have not done so, is exercise. When I felt worst, my wife "forced" me to get outside in the morning and exercise. It is the LAST thing in the world that I wanted to do. I wanted to just sleep in. But it was good for me. Exercise has physiological and psychological benefits. I highly recommend it. Second, make sure you spend some time doing things you enjoy. Whatever that is. Sport, music, photography, nature, reading, eating ice cream. Whatever. Don't let days go by without doing anything enjoyable. Third, consider doing some things for others who are less fortunate. Maybe you can volunteer with the poor or some such thing. Many find helping others to be fulfilling. And it will show you that you are not worthless. These are just a few ideas, in addition to counseling. I wish you the best. Medved.