Glad to hear from you-was wondering about you. Although I am very happy you admitted yourself, I am disappointed that you broke the rules right off the bat. Sneaking in pain meds is a big red flag and you are lucky they did not find them. Psych wards are about rules and trust..you started out with a lie. Ipad are no nos because they want you to concentrate on getting better and the outside world often prevents us from doind that
OK enu scolding...how are your groups, are you learning anything? Wards vary widely in quality so I hope you got a good one. You spoke at length about getting in but nothing about being in. I really hope you find some relief and help there...do they kow about the cutting..you have to be honest Charles...brutally honest with yourself.
I hope your wife is supporting you and that you get the full experience of being there.
All my best