Dear Sober for Good!
Kudos to you dear!! You are making a great start by dumping the marijuana. You have been working with a counselor . . . Another big cheer for you . .
*Rosie pats Sober on the back, places her arm around Sober and walks along while they talk*
Sober, you are doing great!! I don't know how old you are, but losing your Dad is traumatic at any age and it sounds like you were young when that happened. *tears* I'm sooo sorry that you have spent 11 years without him.
I grew up with no grandparents nearby (12 hours away by car) and I felt pain because of everything my friends would do with their grands, aunts and uncles. But I think that God placed some special people around me to make up for my loss. I don't know if it was that way for you, but I am sure of it for me. I had very special pets and I loved to read.
It sounds like you are making some great progress Sober. I do hope you will be able to work through all the steps of mourning the loss of your Dad with the counselor. The loss will still be there, but it will be less painful for you.
Crying is ok too. Better to get the pain OUT than to hold it in. Sometimes counselors want to see us a few times BEFORE they put us on meds so that they will be able to properly evaluate the benefit of the med after we start taking it.
It took a lot of courage for you to come here and share with us Sober . . . I'm very glad that you did. You mentioned the thought of harming yourself . . . Please remember that in the second topic of this forum "Depression Resources" . . . the seconde post in that topic is a 24 hour suicide hotline and web link. If you ever have a thought of harming yourself, please call YOUR counselor or call a hot line like the one listed here.
Thanks for taking such a big risk and sharing your feelings here. You have helped many people who are not ready to post yet, but have similar problems.
In His Grip,
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