Helpless & useless

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ailing
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   Posted 5/17/2012 9:10 AM (GMT -6)   
cry cry cry This few days feel helpless & very useless becos can't do anything at all, me no gut at all, keep bully by friends family relative, this is how my story start: this few days early in the morning mum wake keep nag & scold me for nothing, sometime band the things show me faces, I really Donno wat I do wrong , even I done wat I should do still the same, special is I wan go out like go for check up buy things or ..... Mum will scold & scold till I never go and stay at home, yes many ppl teach and tell me don scare or afraid just do wat I wan but say is very easy no one understand wat kind of world I live,let say like tat : if mum nag I talk nicely back to her mum will say this " I cannot talk , talk only all wrong , we this kind of ppl shd die so no prob ,u mean me , u say wan all right," then mum cry and don eat waiting for me to beg her, after tat will call to her sister and say all tat kind of words to ppl hear then I will get scolding by them, since young my mum go work she will lock me in home ( all bedroom all lock) just in living room no food too, when primary school no friends too if friends come mum will chase away and scold them soo till now I no friends at all, I feel very lonely lonely sad sad , mum look money very big to me if I have money don spend on her she also not happy, when I ask her wat she wan to eat she don and I must ask many times then ans if I don buy will angry, everytime buy food I tell my son go wash hand first but my mum never wash hand then touch the food, mum like to press food or stir food tat is very bad habit , when I tell her mum say my hand clean not dirty how can I say, or mum dip the nose then touch my son food we just have to quiet and eat, one more prob is mum always nag and shout don wan talk softly or nicely to us, so my son learn from her & do back the same, so mum always complain and shout to me I tell her and many ppl told her don do like tat but still same and getting worst, wat we buy back she will surely open up and touch or press, one day my stomach pain go toilet then mum come out wan go toilet ( one toilet only ) but I just went in then mum say she wan go toilet also cannot mean like I don let her go, the way she talk never think of my feel bcos she just noe bully me I am the only take care her, her son don care her but she love n care the son she afraid of son dare not say the son n his wife even they wrong , b4 mum got intestine cancer need op doc tell me is third term so I tell my bro but I get scold by bro wife they say I Donno doc say and don understand English we quarrel in wards outside then I very angry say I don care anymore then mum side bro , so when meet doc infront doc I ask isn't my mum illness is wat I tell them n even more I can tell out, so they feel ashame of it, bro wife keep call doc in a day doc tell me pls ask ur sis in law don keep call us doc are biz not waiting for her call so I tell sis in law off , sis in law complain to bro hope he scold me but I say if wan scold me must got reason or I done wrong , my dad die of cancer and I am the one take care and settle everything's my bro never do anything don say come out help or cash, my dad pass leave amount of money to me is joint acc with dad sister, but after few years I ask aunt can transfer to me but aunt say the money my mum ask to give my bro without telling me and hide many years so can see how my mum love him, I have crohns now need money but no money to see doc , so just wait to die , when
Young time I work as pro in karaoke lounge one day can earn over $200+ everyday give mum $100 but now how mum treat me back, if u all see my name in gelling well will understand now I filing divorce and ex also wan me pay him cash my life is own ppl money I feel to end my life but think back my son & mum to look after so never do it or think it oredi, just hope god can help me bless me strong and happy days I really can't live on like this god help me chg my mum character and brain pls, I hope HW can pray for my mum I will very grateful to u ..... I see depression doc and gl doc , I from sg Thank you ur sincerely GOD BLESS EVERYONE IN HW..... Hope everyone will live happily and no sadness ..... ☀❤🌟

Jim1969
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   Posted 5/17/2012 1:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Has your Mum always been like this or is it something new or has it gotten a lot worse as she has gotten older?

Whether the way she acts now is new or not I think getting her to see a doctor would be a good idea. There may be a medical reason such as depression or hormone changes that is causing this or making things worse.

I know things are bad for you right now but hang in there and be as strong as you can be. You are taking some positive steps to improve your health. Just don't give up. Things will get better one day.
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   Posted 5/18/2012 8:44 AM (GMT -6)   
Thank linderbinder u suggest to go yoga or accupture first yoga need pay and need go out, accupture also same need cash but my sititaction very hard for me, bside tat still have no need spend any cash exercise , everyday I do some simple execise too just in night,

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   Posted 5/18/2012 8:54 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi jim1969, thank for reply my question, yes my mum age is going 70 , not recently chg been few years ago, she have high blood pressure been taking meds, bring her see doc but she don wan say she no sick or stress, tat is true my mum character is tat kind of no worries ppl even wat happen in her or me, when I was 13 yrs old have kidney prob she don care or worry then 14 yrs old I have anal fistula when for op she also same and everyday keep ask me go die, after few years I recover go work for not long I fall sick again, tat is crohns I been suffing of illness since young, yes everyone say next time will be better but how long been waiting how long still need wait, even my son she angry also ask my son go die this kind of word can say to daughter and grandson? If other ppl I am sure they oredi do it infront mum, but why I still around bcos if I die who will look after her, my heart very soft can't let ppl suffer....
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