Another holiday is here, and I've as usual got nothing to do. I can't find a job, am living with my parents, and have no money. I think most of my friends have given up on me. So tonight, I'm drinking and getting numb -- at least I'll sleep well, which I usually don't.
Lost my oldest son six years ago, and a younger one 21 months ago (discovered his body in my home). Many business problems and a divorce three years ago. I suffer from anxiety, depression, and have developed a fear of crowds and social situations with people I don't know.