I feel silly even writing this message, but i don't know who else i can talk to about the way i've been feeling for the last couple of months. I feel like i'm just making a fuss over nothing!
I'm a student at university and have nearly finished my first year. I've made lots of friends and have been really happy up until a couple of months ago, when i had a massive fight with a friend from home. He still isn't speaking to me, and i suppose this has affected me, now i just feel miserable all the time, just crying randomly etc. and am just plagued with self-doubt all the time. I thought i was being stupid and have ignored how ive been feeling but it's all starting to get on top of me. I'm getting no sleep at night, i haven't been to bed before 7am in weeks and i'm starting to avoid my flatmates and other people. Constantly feeling like i'm not good enough, not eating, getting drunk more than normal.
It got so bad a couple of weeks ago i went home for a week and missed all my lectures, but i just told my parents i was there to do revision. That made me feel better for a while, but now i'm back, i feel just as bad as ever. I don't want to speak to anyone about it, i almost feel guilty for feeling like this, because up until a few months ago, uni has been the best part of my life.
Suicide has crossed my mind a couple of times, but i know i'd never do something like that. Is it normal to feel like this?