Depression but no typical symptoms

New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
[ << Previous Thread | Next Thread >> ]

Kiara123
New Member


Date Joined May 2012
Total Posts : 7
   Posted 5/31/2012 1:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello, I'm a girl in her early twenties
(I'm Dutch, so it's possible that my English isn't that outstanding).
I've been diagnosed with depression and I'm taking Sertraline 100 mg. It runs in our family.
My depression doesn't really have a reason, it just came.

But when I search for the symptoms of depression, I can't find myself in most of the typical symptoms.
Is it possible to be depressed and to be happy at the same time?
I still enjoy things, I love my family and friends, I don't have a really low self esteem, I eat well, I sleep enough, I am extravert, I talk a lot with friends about things that botter me, I don't feel extremely guilty... A few months ago I couldn't go to school, couldn't study, cried a lot and I had panic attacks. Now I kind of have my normal life back, but I still feel like crap..
Is this possible? I do the thing I would normally do and I'm able to enjoy from the little things, but every day there's this depressed feeling in my heart/mind. It's always there,when I'm alone, when I'm busy, when I'm doing stuff with my friends,... The feeling is hard to describe. It's there all the time, sometimes really loud, but sometimes it's just in the back of my heart. I carry it with me, every single moment, whatever I do..

Is this really a depression or could it be something else? It feels so weird..

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42610
   Posted 5/31/2012 2:29 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Kiara,

It sounds like you do have depression but the medications are helping you. Maybe you need to up it a little bit. I would talk to the doctor about that. If you aren't feeling that well, it might be time for an adjustment.

You speak fine english. I understand what you are saying. I hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting, talk to the doc. Have a great day. Enjoy those things that you are able to. They will be but memories soon.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

Kiara123
New Member


Date Joined May 2012
Total Posts : 7
   Posted 6/19/2012 11:22 AM (GMT -6)   
Sorry for answering late. I spoke to my psychiatrist but it was the first time I met this psych, so adjusting or changing medication was not immediately possible. I manage! I'm worried about my depression. I know that a depression goes away, but what about chronic depression or a depression that is genetically? I don't understand how it can go away. I know that you can learn to cope with it and that medication and therapy could help a lot. But does the depressed feelings ever really go away? I don't have a problem with a relapse every 2 years for a month or 2 (for example), but the constant depressed feeling scares me.. You can learn to live with it, it gets better, it can go up and down, but are there moments when the slumbering feeling isn't there? I just don't understand how it works (scientifically I mean). I would like more about the science of depression, so I could understand it better and to get my hopes up for a life without a depression that lasts forever (not even a little bit depressed for a little while).

Kaely
Veteran Member


Date Joined May 2012
Total Posts : 619
   Posted 6/19/2012 11:45 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Kiara and welcome.

Your English is fine. With the right meds you can live a normal life and not feel miserable all the time. Depression does not go away but it can be treated. I'm on Celexa 40mg and it's working really well for me. Yes the depression is still there but the Celexa makes it bearable.

I'm not a doctor but I think you need a change in medication. Perhaps a higher dose or a different medication may help you more. The annoying part is getting the medications right.

Yes depression can run in families. It runs in mine. I have it, as do both of my sisters and my father. In this case it's a chemical problem in the brain.

Some types of depression do go away on their own, such as situational depression. The type I have does not. If I were to stop taking my medication I'd be right back to being miserable all the time.
Chronic pain, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Tennis Elbow (both arms), Arthritis (knees and fingers), Diabetes. Ruptured disk L-4, Severe degenerative damage L5-S1, ACDF C6-C7

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42610
   Posted 6/19/2012 12:21 PM (GMT -6)   
When you are genetically depressed, I think it is a chemical embalance in the brain. Certain meds balance that chemical for you. There fore you don't feel depressed anymore.

I think Kaely is right in saying you could need a medication adjustment.

Thanks for posting. Keep us up on how you are doing.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42610
   Posted 6/19/2012 1:55 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Carson,

Welcome to the forum, and thank you for your input.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

Kiara123
New Member


Date Joined May 2012
Total Posts : 7
   Posted 6/19/2012 2:59 PM (GMT -6)   
But what does it mean? I understand that a depression doesn't go away if it's due to the chemical imbalance/when it runs in the family and I know that it can be treated. But what do you mean that the depression is still there? Compared to a person without ever having a depression? Do you feel the same as them for most of the time and do you get a relapse once in a while or do you carry the depression around all the time like a down feeling or minor depression?
If I compare it to someone who has a disability and isn't able to walk and that it can be treated. Would this mean that the person is able to walk again like someone else, but with a few 'relapses' and that this person can walk again after a relapse. He still has the disease, but the treatment/medication 'solves the problem'. Or does it mean that the person will be able to stand up and walk for a while but that he can't run or walk like someone else? Strange comparison, I know, but it's easier for me to explain it like this.
thank you very much for your advise so far!

Kaely
Veteran Member


Date Joined May 2012
Total Posts : 619
   Posted 6/19/2012 3:12 PM (GMT -6)   
I don't know if I 'feel the same as them', I've never been one of 'them'. All I know is that the meds make my life considerably better.

If you are asking if there is a cure for depression that would depend on what type you have. If, like me, you have major clinical depression then there is no cure that I know of.
If someone had situational or post partum depression then yes those could be cured, or rather, they cure themselves with time/therapy/meds.

If you're interested in how depression works check out this site
http://health.howstuffworks.com/mental-health/depression/facts/depression.htm it explains things much better than I could.
Chronic pain, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Tennis Elbow (both arms), Arthritis (knees and fingers), Diabetes. Ruptured disk L-4, Severe degenerative damage L5-S1, ACDF C6-C7

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42610
   Posted 6/19/2012 4:39 PM (GMT -6)   
Kaely,

thank you for the site. That was very nice of you to share.

Kiara,

I don'[t think anybody knows what is really normal. How would you compare it? Nobody knows what the other person really feels. We only know what we feel. And I don't think you are going to get anywhere trying to figure it out.

The psychiatrist said my depression was in remission. But that is only with medications, so I don't feel cured. But I do feel good for the most part and I feel very fortunate for that.

You will get farther ahead by taking life one day at a time. Try to live in the moment. It leaves no time for worrying about the future or past. Or if there is a cure for depression. Some things just are. Enjoy your life. If you aren't going to counseling, I would suggest starting. It really helps to give us direction in our lives. I sure do hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

Kiara123
New Member


Date Joined May 2012
Total Posts : 7
   Posted 6/20/2012 1:26 AM (GMT -6)   
I just don't want this depressed feeling all the time, not even if it's less heavy than before.. I don't really understand how it's possible to stay motivated if there is a struggle for the rest of your life. I have no problems with the idea that I'll get a depression once in a while, but I'm scared that there is a minor depression all the time. I rather have a few 'bigger depressions' than 1 that's always there, even if it's a 'light version'. The past few months, I've been able to function like I used to, but the depressed feeling didn't go away. I was able to enjoy things and I didn't feel as bad as before, but to carry around this feeling every day is not exactly bareable for the rest of my life. I hope it's possible that this feeling goes away for most of the time..

thanks for the site, I'll check it out!

Kiara123
New Member


Date Joined May 2012
Total Posts : 7
   Posted 6/21/2012 5:52 AM (GMT -6)   
Thank you for your replies, it really helps to put things into perspective :)
New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
Forum Information
Currently it is Friday, September 21, 2018 4:54 AM (GMT -6)
There are a total of 3,005,378 posts in 329,237 threads.
View Active Threads


Who's Online
This forum has 161774 registered members. Please welcome our newest member, Audreyli.
192 Guest(s), 4 Registered Member(s) are currently online.  Details
Deep_sleep, Sarge 83, steve-d, Mike0228