Hello, I'm a girl in her early twenties
(I'm Dutch, so it's possible that my English isn't that outstanding).
I've been diagnosed with depression and I'm taking Sertraline 100 mg. It runs in our family.
My depression doesn't really have a reason, it just came.
But when I search for the symptoms of depression, I can't find myself in most of the typical symptoms.
Is it possible to be depressed and to be happy at the same time?
I still enjoy things, I love my family and friends, I don't have a really low self esteem, I eat well, I sleep enough, I am extravert, I talk a lot with friends about things that botter me, I don't feel extremely guilty... A few months ago I couldn't go to school, couldn't study, cried a lot and I had panic attacks. Now I kind of have my normal life back, but I still feel like crap..
Is this possible? I do the thing I would normally do and I'm able to enjoy from the little things, but every day there's this depressed feeling in my heart/mind. It's always there,when I'm alone, when I'm busy, when I'm doing stuff with my friends,... The feeling is hard to describe. It's there all the time, sometimes really loud, but sometimes it's just in the back of my heart. I carry it with me, every single moment, whatever I do..
Is this really a depression or could it be something else? It feels so weird..