I don't know if I am bored per se today but I am procrastinating big time. I have this huge project looming over my head and while I have half way started. Everytime I look at it I get tired and doing anything else seems so much better.
I spend way too much time alone lately not quality time, usually with my best friend the TV and the other friend known as sleep. My therapist thinks that I isolate myself from others because when I spend too much time with others I become vulnerable and pull back from getting to know people better.
That is also why I take on "big" projects so I don't have to interact with others. Great insight huh? I just have to start making different choices on where to spend my times on projects that help me avoid relationships and keep me safe but stress me out or on relationships that are satisfying and vulnerable. As I hear all the time there are no guarntees in life and this is the reality- safety in this situation comes at a big price.