Welcome to the Depression forum. It does sound like you are really depressed. Do you see a counselor? I would suggest starting if you don't. They can help you to feel better about yourself and give you confidence to talk to girls. You aren't a hindred object, you are stronger than you think.
I often paint when I am depressed, you may be able to work it out through your poems. But I would seriously talk to a counselor. You want to be able to focus on your classes. So make that appointment. See somebody, you may even need medication.
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