As time goes by, you may become angry at the way she was. I always had a way of forgiving my mother, and she had a way of making me feel guilty. But I think I have come to terms with that. I did have my anger for awhile, though I felt bad for her mostly.
You will get through this, take each step as it comes. The stronger you get the more that you will see it for what it is. Or was... It isn't easy, but your mind protects you and gives you only as much as you can handle at any given time. ptsd is strange. But I think it is necessary to cope. Our mind is complicated in ways that we can't even imagine. Just take this as it comes, one day at a time.
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