Depressive Imagination and escapes.

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Kenco
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   Posted 7/6/2012 10:05 AM (GMT -6)   
Well I'm 20 years old and I'm not sure how long its been but I suffer from depression I only realised I did when people around me started to notice. I was surprised that my behaviour was, weird. That people didn't think the same way as I did, I thought how I thought was perfectly normal. Obviously it wasn't. I'm currently on anti-depressants and have been on them for 5 months now.

Something I noticed before getting help is that I used my imagination ALOT, I believe I was using it as an escape. But I enjoyed this, I enjoy disappearing off into my head for awhile. I did this so much that I actually started to create a story from random thoughts, I began to write these thoughts down. I began to see a whole world of impossible things I had created appear infront of me, universes and universes full of bizarre and strange things. I loved it. To have these random thoughts and ideas, without any intention they started telling a story after I organised them.

I started to fully write these out as a book, but ever since I've been taking these anti-depressants, I dunno really I've just not had any ideas thoughts or anything. I've had no imagination, at all. I don't like this.

Do you think this all could be connected? I kind of hope it isn't.

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   Posted 7/6/2012 10:54 AM (GMT -6)   
I can't paint when I am not depressed. I have a lot of fine work from when I was depressed though. It was my escape. Save what you wrote and write when you don't have writer's block. If you force it, it wont be the same. Just put the writings away in a safe place for later. And continue on with your life. There definately is a connection, but it is the depression. That is our way of surviving. But if you are feeling good on the antidepressants otherwise, then you should be happy about that. If you are not, talk to your doctor about an adjustment.

Kenco, I didn't welcome you to the forum. Sorry. I will do that now. I hope that you stick around. This is a good place to come. Try to channel your imagination with something else. Let the writing rest until you get the mood again. Just don't throw it away or lose it. It sounds like you have real talent and that is how it works. We can't really control it. And if you have writer's block, there isn't anything you can do. But starting another project could bring you back to the first one. So start some new writing.

Good luck!!!

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Kaely
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   Posted 7/6/2012 5:50 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Kenco and welcome,

I can't write poetry when I'm not depressed. Then again, I don't need to. That was an outlet for all the bad thoughts in my head. When taking my meds, the outlet isn't necessary because I feel decent.

Karen is right, tuck the stories away for now. Trust me you will have times you are still depressed and can work on them when you need the outlet.
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Kenco
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   Posted 7/7/2012 2:46 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello, also thanks to getting back to me rather quickly. It was a lot quicker than I thought I would get replies, again thank you.

I did save and copy all my notes onto my laptop and memory stick for backup took me along time to do though. All my notes and stories I wrote out on paper, find it so much easier to concentrate with pen and paper rather than the computer. The other reason being I got inspiration and ideas in waves, and whenever I had an idea I wrote it down and connected them all later. Some of these notes are incomprehensible scribbles, just 3 letters long. But incredibly important and impossible to decipher unless you have about 4 other notes to guide you.

But something I didn't say is that I would like to finish it. It's one of the only things that I've created that is solely mine, I've created this with no manipulation or criticism from others. I wasn't told to do this nor had I previously done this. It, it well just happened. I would like to see it through though, to the end I don't like the fact its now just sitting there half finished.

I feel happier on the meds, more normal (balanced). I still have some bad days which can run on for a week or so...I guess I'll just wait and not force anything, see what happens and keep it in mind.

getting by
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   Posted 7/7/2012 3:12 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Kenco,

Yea, I wouldn't force it, but if you come up with anything, write it down for later accessment. You don't have to give up on it, the thoughts could still flow.

I hope one day that you finish it.

Keep posting and know that we care...

Hugs, Karen
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