I have been attending the chatrooms for a week and a half and have made alot of new friends.I've gotten help a few times when I've really needed it as well as giving some help also.That is why i decided to post an Introduction.
6 years ago I was in a very serious car accident.In an instant my life was changed.At first it seemed all physical.As days and weeks went by friends and family noticed a "change"in me but shrugged it off as stress.3 monthes later I had a "break" at one of my children for a simple glass of spilled milk I was able to "snap "out of it and sought aggressive treatment not just for me but for my 3 children (at the time)and my Wife.
Through treatment and time I was diagnosed with numorous disorders including Depression,Anxiety/Panic disorder,OCD,Emotional control diorder And Psychosis.Further testing revealed a Phsyical as well as a mental disorder,they had found a "dead spot"where I had hit my head in the accident.
5 years after a balance of Medication and Therapy things have gotten better.I occassionally still have outbursts however they are not Physically violent and are minor in comparison to my past episodes.I have also added another child in 2001.
My physical disabilities and pain will continue to get worse as my life progresses until paralysis from the waist down.
I endure my pain and I survive everyday.I have lived the past 6 years in quiet and in solitude.However since Ive found this wonderful place with wonderful people i have been greeted openly by all no matter what the ailment because we have one goal and that is to recover
So I put pen to paper and created a passage that I would like to share with everyone to explain how I have felt and how I now feel:
I have walked the road of recovery
for sometime now
I look behind and see progress
though slow and alone it was
I look foward and see no end
I am alone.......
then a hand touched each shoulder so tender
so I looked to both sides and I found friends
who dont walk behind nor ahead
but by my side
I am not alone.......
and through my endless journey
I hope to see them reach
the end of thier road of recovery
I will always be here
but NEVER ALONE
I walk with my friends
Thank you all for the support and encouragement
And I dedicate this passage to Anyone who wishes to walk beside us.
With that said as soon as I can I will drop the descriptive name of an old life "General Chaos" and now be known as "Never Alone"
**Moderators Please Cross post and edit as you see fit**
but please keep my old and new names with it