Abusive men love to keep you feeling insecure and helpless. You said you are a full time student? Can you get work study and live on campus? If not, maybe you should go back to Michigan and go to school there.
Shyness makes things harder for you for sure. I'm not shy but I am deeply paranoid so I don't do well with counseling. However if you can bring yourself to at least try, it can help you a lot.
This forum is a safe place for you to vent, so keep coming back and posting here, that should help some. At least you will have people to talk to on here.
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