welcome to the forum and hope you post here often, you will find friends who care.
Sounds like the most immediate need is for you to get back on the meds, see the doctors and find a therapist.
Meds alone do not get rid of depression. AT best, they help 50%, the rest is up to the person and how much they want to get better!
Being so young, you have a double whammy with your horomones goingin up and down. Meds are very serious at your age and communicating with the doc is essiential to your care!
With those of us with depression, happiness is goal, we get it one day a week that is good, then 2 days a week, etc... it takes time, energy and work.
Start with the doc. and find a good therapist, STAY ON THE MEDS, BE HONEST IN THERAPY. IF YOU DON'T LIKE YOUR THERAPIST, GET A NEW ONE. and remember this NEVER,NEVER NEVER GIVER UP, KEEP TRYING.
Kabir says: "Student tell me, what is God? He is the breath inside the breath". from the poem Breath.
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;