at this point! reason is going it on your own in when you have depression, is one of the worse ideas. It is like going on a trip without any money. You just would not do it. It is like any other medical condition, people with depression, anxiety etc.. need a doctors care. THERE IS NO SHAME IN IT
I wish you to stay safe and best wishes.
Kabir says: "Student tell me, what is God? He is the breath inside the breath". from the poem Breath.
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;