In a strange way i feel like I abandoned this forum because I felt better so I stopped posting. Now I feel depressed again and I've come crawling back. I guess that's kinda the way it's supposed to go, but i feel a little selfish that I didn't return just to check in, give more hope to others, and thank those who helped me again.
Anyway, I got a terrible nights sleep and feel really bad today, I've been taking my meds and everything. But stopped doing the things that were helping me before like meditating, laying off caffiene and alchohol, and resumed a few other bad habbits I won't bore everyone with. It's like I thought I was all cured - foolish of me to let my guard down. Now i feel nervous, sad and am having trouble concentrating.