vacation time, I feel numb and dread

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pocketfull
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   Posted 8/2/2012 8:39 AM (GMT -6)   
I dont want to be this way. I have got so much to do and no inspiration to lift a finger. I realize I am depressed and numb, but I have got to get my act together. Yesterday was a terrible day of pain from fibro and arthritis and neuropathy in feet and hands. Not so bad today thank goodness. Its just that I should be so excited to see my 2 niece and nephew. For 5 years they were our grand kids from birth to 5. They have grown and changed so much. I am excited to see them and I hope it goes well. Hopefully they can help me come out of this dread I feel of leaving my home, which I rarely do, to now cross country for 2 weeks. I can act cheerful with most people for a short while. Now being in Motor home I may feel better by staying in there most of the time. WHY do I feel like this. I am trying hard to be energetic and happy. Do any of you feel this way? Any words to help me break thru this will be very much appreciated......thanks in advance....Cathy

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   Posted 8/2/2012 10:45 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Cathy,

I think you are anticipating things and that once you get going, it is going to be better than you think. You will be on an adventure.

Try to take the projects one thing at a time. Maybe write a list of what you have to do. Start with something easy. Once you get going, I think it will flow. I often write lists and as I start crossing things off I feel a great deal of accomplishment. You are probably looking at the overall picture and it is overwhelming for you.

Remember with the fibromyalgia, you must keep moving. Maybe do a few gentle stretches or go for a short walk. Don't give up on yourself. Just try to look at things in a not so stressful way. Break it up into small pieces and digest it a little at a time. You can do this and you are going to have a good time on your vacation. Keep your chin up...

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 8/2/2012 11:26 AM (GMT -6)   
I agree with Karen,

I feel that you are making mountains out of imaginary mole hills! Take some nice deep slow....breaths.. count to 3 and just concentrate on the next hour. Then the next hour, and so fourth. That way you enjoy life and and the present moment.

While you are resting on vacation, look up mindfulness, it will help you. Yoga, also, just gentle stretches, not the knot tying type.

Enjoy life in small incremants and you will be fulfilled!
Kabir says: "Student tell me, what is God? He is the breath inside the breath". from the poem Breath.

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pocketfull
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   Posted 8/2/2012 1:15 PM (GMT -6)   
Thank you both for kind words and ideas. I will count my blessings and will use my wheelchair more to help back pain. I did get a shock today, typical of my husband. He called to say he would pick up my meds at cvs, then told me he has moved the date we are leaving to next friday. This sunday was what we were shooting for. I was just shocked, but its just like him to TELL me he has changed the date, not TALK with me about anything. I just kept my cool and got my suit on and went swimming. Our weather is horribly hot here in e. texas. I feel so bad for people without airconditioning. yall have a good day and thanks for positive ideas......Cathy
I am 61 years young. I have neuropathy in both feet and hands. I have spinal stenosis and arthritis in my back. I am bipolar and with panic attacks. I cannot walk. I choose to stay home all the time. I love living in the country. Its very peaceful.

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   Posted 8/2/2012 2:28 PM (GMT -6)   
Cathy,

I didn't read your signature before and I told you to walk not realizing that you couldn't. I am sorry about that. There are stretches in the fibromyalgia forum that you can do sitting down. To work your arms and torso. It is in a thread called "fibro 101".

I still think you are going to enjoy the trip, but I see where you are coming from about your husband not discussing it with you and making the decisions by himself. But maybe it will work out good after all. Try to go with the flow of it and see what happens. I think you are really going to have a good time.

Take care and keep posting...

Hugs, Karen
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pocketfull
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   Posted 8/2/2012 9:05 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Karen, you are a dear.......My walking is getting some better since I have got to spend so much time in pool exercising. I can walk in the water and its so nice to have one. My hubby agreed with the doctor about water exercise so we put one in at the end of summer last year. Didnt get to use it much. We are having hellish heat here in e. texas and the water feels so good right now. We have invited all of our neighbors to use it at will. It needs to be used. We live in the country and only 6 houses on our road. Bunch of old people like us. We have 8 acres. A year and a half ago I was mowing 3 acres of lawn every week. I traded my john deere for wheelchair when my back just got so bad and I was falling so much. I have never been a lazy person and I just still feel lazy all the time. Pain can put you down, I never believed it but its true......I hope yall have a good nite and less pain tomorrow.....best regards....Cathy
I am 61 years young. I have neuropathy in both feet and hands. I have spinal stenosis and arthritis in my back. I am bipolar and with panic attacks. I cannot walk. I choose to stay home all the time. I love living in the country. Its very peaceful.

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   Posted 8/3/2012 5:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Cathy,

Yes, the pain can really get you down. That is strange, I have eight acres too. In Michigan though. We have a big lawn too. But not three acres. I am so glad that you have a pool for water therapy. That would be so nice. Fibro is really hard on you and I know how you feel. I have slowed down imensily. I don't know if I spelled that right. Just kind of got up and a little half there... Or here...

I hope that you have a good day and a pain free one at that.

Take care Cathy...

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