Last year, I had a major depressive episode. I went to counseling, took my meds, and basically healed myself. My husband was never supportive in my therapy, never thought I needed meds and basically made recovering from my issues a drawn out process. I dealt with it, did what I had to do, and moved on.
Now, I find myself becoming depressed again, and it is all due to my husband. He has a majorly addictive personality. He smokes marijuana, which I've never been a fan of but it is "medically prescribed" to him, so what can I really say. He has a prescription for vicodin, which he uses within 10 days of receiving his month long prescription, he has an alcohol dependency. When I had my issues last year, his issues did lighten to aa tolerable level. However, in the past 3 months he has increased all of his intake of the aforementioned drugs. He has also resorted to buying Xanax on the street. Which, mind you, when I was taking anti-depressants he didn't feel I needed and wanted me to quit taking. He has recently come home from worked and completely passed out, drooling, mumbling and unable to be woke. I only found out through a close friend of ours that the Xanax was the newest drug he had introduced. Tonight, he came home in a stupor again. I searched his vehicle, and found 50 Xanax in a pill bottle. I am at a loss.
I'm not sure how to approach the above situation.. when I find out he lies to me, he will admit it because he is caught, however if I try to have a real conversation with him about these problems I am told "I'm not in the mood for a lecture, it was wrong, but I was too embarrsed to tell you, it won't happen again". Well, it happens over and over, and now I am to the point that it is affecting my mental stability. I don't know how to deal with his addictive personality, or if I ever can.
Someone, please give me advice before I fall off the edge again!
**Why is it that I feel sometimes what I feel inside just isn't normal?
How can I free my mind of the real deep times I spent feeling a lot warmer**
- Glen Meadows
Major Depressive Disorder; Anxiety; Alcohol Abuse