I'm soooo sorry that you were treated that way
. I have a dear friend who has a similar story and it just makes me want to scream! I called her up one day (the friend) and told her to pretend that I was her mother and to pretend that she was sitting on my lap and that I was holding her tenderly. I then told her all the things I thought she might want to hear from her mother (like, I'm sorry I didn't protect you from harm and I'm sorry I wasn't the loving, nurtering mom that you deserve . . . I love you soo much, but I was sooo messed up that I didn't function normally . . .etc.).
Dbab, write three letters to yourself from your uncle, your grandmother, and your mom. Tell yourself all the things that you want to hear from these people. It sounds kindof stupid . . . but it really is healing.
I hope you are in counseling and I hope you have been able to tell your counselor about this . . . he/she will be able to help you get a good perspective on things.
(((((((((((((Dbab))))))))))))) I'm so sorry that your childhood was robbed from you.
In His Grip,
UCTD (Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease), Hashimoto's, High BP, GI Inflamation, Diverticuloses
Plaquenil, RX Motrin, Lexapro, Amitriptylene, Salagen, Lotrel