This is a bit of a long story. So bear with me. I am a 30 year old married male. I have been healthy all my life with no major illness(touchwood) or depression. I had a girlfriend who is now my wife and we have known each other for 8 years now and we have been married for a year and 6 months.Before we got married we had a long distance relationship right through with us meeting for 8-9 days every 2 months or so. Because we were from different religions it was a little bit of a fight for us to convince our parents but we did and finally got married last year. However 1.5 years before I got married, I met this girl lets call her S. She was a collegue at work and was fun to be with. We became good friends and soon this friendship turned into a physical relationship 6 months before I got married. I know I should have broken off with my wife when I had got invloved with S, but I didnt. Both me and S decided that we wuld put a stop to our relationship and that I go ahead and get married as we didnt know whether we loved each other. However a month into my marriage, i reached out to S to check how she was doing and well to cut the long story short, we got back together and ended up having an affair.
Early this year we again decided to stop this as this was leading nowhere and I had encouraged her to go out and meet other people so she could get over me and move on. At that point I had thought she was struck on me and me a little less and I would be ok and should move on easily. At the same time, i also started hating the work I have been doing. I am pretty good at my job and I have also been doing well at my job, but its mundane work sometimes and can get boring. So while I was having a crisis regarding my work life, S also found someone else who she thought she saw herself spending her life with. While I took it well initially, it hit me very hard after that.
Initailly i wasnt interested in doing work, didnt eat properly, lost around 5 kgs of weight and stopped sleeping properly. Earleir I used t sleep like a log where i would wake up only when i woke up from sleep at the end of 7-8 hours. Now i keep waking up every few hours which makes me irritable during the day. While all the others (not able to work, loss of appetite) etc have gone down, I still am not able to sleep properly.
Am I Depressed? I dont know what to do. Somebody please help me.