1) Dear getting by/Karen,
being young & hot blooded, I did mistake by resigning from my earlier job.
It was fault of both me and my boss. There was some misunderstanding.
But whatever I should not had resigned.
Looking back I realize that I was foolish and made mistake.
I should had talked and taken advice from my near ones, which I didn't do.
Anyways, past is past. I can't change that.
2) Dear BnotAfraid and JB1,
Yes I am applying for jobs and trying to do things as you are suggesting.
Regarding temp agencies, such don't exist in my country.
But the problem is that I am not finding enough courage to do things as I used to do earlier with so much confidence.
Yes I'll try for meditation. That's one thing left maybe.
Friends as I stated earlier, I had wonderful career going. I also realize that there are many miserable souls out there who are in more awful situation than me.
But I also heard somewhere that "For every person, his/her misfortunes seem greatest in world".
Maybe that's happening to me too.
For me, my family is there. they are supporting me.
But again the problem is that though I discuss things with them, I don't want to discuss these things with them often.
it gives them pain to know that I am in pain. I can see it. So, I don't try to sound in pain infront of them.
But not discussing with them these things is also painful for me.
Thank you guys at least here I can discuss with you.
Hugs from Raj to all of you.
Post Edited (Raj007) : 8/17/2012 1:45:55 AM (GMT-6)