Posted 8/16/2012 8:40 AM (GMT -7)
I've been struggling with a mystery illness for over 10 years now. Getting closer to a diagnosis and am on meds, but still don't have a name for it. Saw a new rheumy on August 1 and am still awaiting blood results. With time, the joint pain, stiffness, fatigue, weakness, GI problems, etc have gotten worse and I've come to realize that I cannot keep living the way I am. We have a farm with nearly 60 animals, and I'm responsible for the herd health, feeding, nutrition, breeding, genetic selection, marketing, etc. And then there's the fiber mill, with equipment to operate, fiber to prepare and sort, etc. In order to make my life easier, I think we need to either sell most/all the animals, since they are the most physically demanding. I don't WANT to, but with my health and the way I get worse every year I NEED to. Either that, or board the herd somewhere. I can't do it anymore. My dad thinks he can take it on all himself (running everything on the farm, maintenance, building, animal care, marketing, etc and running the mill), and I think he's insane. We haven't been able to get any good farm help in the past 6 years, and doing what I do takes a good deal of scientific, veterinary & medical knowledge.
I tried to explain this to my dad, and he said I need to stop thinking about this and he'll do everything. Well, the two of us haven't been able to keep up, so how on earth is he going to do it all himself? He thinks I'm giving up and is not being supportive at all. He's not being practical or realistic. He told me once that if I ever said I wanted to sell all the animals, he'd support that. But it seems he lied. I want to sell some of these animals, and leave.