so i moved to lasvegas like 8 months ago,
since then i have been staying with some family
who has already kicked me out once.
i had a job when i first got here then i lost it
that was like 5 months ago,
i think with high chance i may be getting a job here soon
ill find out monday or tuesday.
my boyfriend help me get it
since i been here ive being seeing him for like 7 months
he told me one night he loved me
but thats after i felt that i love him way before he ever said it
he is great,caring ,loving,honest, everything good i thought! and so hee seem.
i just find out like 4 weeks ago that he has been talking to other peoeple
i felt heart broken! i hated myself i blame myself that i didnt make him happy
well one day i got the nerves to call himout on it,
he said its because the relationship got boring
and that he thought we should do something that will make the relationship better
so he said he wanted to have a threesom*
so we did,
i felt some nasty and hated and lost, it eats me up everyday..
well he said that did it for him he went better he wasnt stress out anymore
and that it wasnt for us we wont do it again
well since then i found him messageing someone for two day while i was with him
talking about going on dates and wanting to have unprotected sex when they first meet each other
at this point i had a panic attack that last for 2 days something big sit on my chest and never got off..
i got the guts to confront him,
he said he just feels like we can commuicate any more
and that we had to be more open so he said he stop and we became more open to each other
i felt like everything was cool and fine wee went on vacation in july then he spent my birthday with me on the 11th or july and we seemed to be awesome everything was working out it was love
well on the 24th on july i found out my boyfriend cheated on me with a 16 year old, im 19 and my boyfriend is 25
well then i called him out on everything and he told me he had also cheated on me 2 more time in the relationship once at the beginning and one four months in the relationship
i fill so lost and used and hated nothing has went right with me since i moved here and i cant afford to get out,
life has always been hard for me and is just getting harder everyday, i cant trust no one, i cant eat, or sleep , or think without feeling nothing anymore, i get sick everytime i think about him with someone elsa.
this job is taking to long to get, im broke , im bumming off everyone,
i cant take it im getting so phyiscal tired, im so so tired of being tired and sleeping isnt helping it,
i dont know what to do, about anything i love him so so so much i need him my body and mind tells me that,
i need someone to talk to some good addvice help please