Welcome to the site! I completely related to your message. I had small bouts during college and have been teaching for seven years and getting my graduate degree part time. Last 3 years its got much worse
I feel like I have been at a stand still the last three years. It is has gotten much better because I have been in therapy and working on the meds but I hate the space I am in but I feel angsty what lies ahead. I can't really say I look forward to anything so much... I just think is where I am at in the process. Somedays it really feels void.