I too am sorry to hear you're having such a rough day - I can totally relate, as many here can. When my day starts out that way and there's nothing in the world that's any good, just darkness and clouds, I take every moment as it comes. I stop worrying about what I HAVE to get done then or tomorrow, realising that no amount of worry will make a difference. I now go about with this 'philosophy' in my mind - Can I do anything about it right now? No. Then stop thinking about it and enjoy that weed with the pretty flower or watch that ant carry 5 times it's own weight.
Try to see just what's in front of you. Every single moment in life is filled with innumerable wonders. Doing this makes my day go smoother and I can actually feel the tension easing in my neck and shoulders. Sometimes just standing in a hot shower for 15 minutes puts things in a better light.
When my Fibro is flaring, depression usually follows so I force myself to go for a walk - even if it's only for 2 or 3 minutes - it gets the blood flowing allowing more oxygen into the body and toxins are forced out. To me, "toxins" are anything from pollution to "bad" feelings.
Just know, Display, that every day you're getting better - it may not seem so but as long as you take care of yourself, you're recovering. Better days WILL follow. As it is said - "Tomorrow the sun will rise again".
Finish each day and be done with it.
You have done what you could.
Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
Depression, Fibromyalgia, Tourettes, Bipolar, degenerative disc, sciatica, anxiety, RLS