I am feeling really down right now and my life feels like it's becoming too much and it's kind of down to my parents. My whole life they have pushed me to work my hardest and I know I disappointed my dad when I did not complete my a-levels and went for a course I wanted to do for years. I feel like nothing I ever do is good enough, I travel 2 hours a day now to my new job after completing my course with the highest marks, this involves me getting up at half past 4 in the morning and me getting home at 7 o'clock at night. When I even say I'm tired my dad launches in to a lecture on how tired and stressed out he is working a job he hates. Yet I'm the first one up and the last one home. My dad thinks if he supports me financially then he's supporting me, and while I appreciate the money and everything he helps with, I also would enjoy a bit of emotional support. I cry all the time near enough, I never want to come home, I can't face nights in alone with my parents, it's my worse nightmare. I feel lonely and like everything I do is never good enough and I wish they would just lay off and give me room to breath. I have been with my boyfriend for 2 and a half years now, we're beginning to plan a future. The thing about us is though, he lost his dad 2 years ago and is still grieving, I am suffocated by my parents - we support each other. He's not just my boyfriend he's my best friend. I tell him everything, we discuss how each others days went, we spend all our time together. We don't consider this a bad thing though. My dad feels like this is 'too much' for us and we should consider taking breaks from one another because it is 'unhealthy'. Recently, due to my job we have been forced to spend more time at my house because I knew that I wanted to see him but also that I had to get up for work early in the morning, I thought that I was being sensible. I do understand that this has impacted on my family but we do buy and cook our own meals and we do try to give my family space by sitting in another room. My parents then feel like we should not spend this much time together. I'm 19 years old, dating a guy for 2 and a half years, we're not engaged, moved in together, having sleepovers - I am kind of failing to see their issue. I kind of feel like I should be allowed to decide when I see my boyfriend and when I don't. My mum never really sticks up for me and I wish she would. I know my dad is probably worried about the consequences of us seeing each other all the time but in reality I'm so fed up I'm tempted to leave home. I hate living here because it's so controlling, I cannot even find love and happiness without it being an issue.