I did it! I rented a nice little appartment near my work place then I confronted my boyfriend gently. I just told him that I didn't love him the way I used to and that I've been trying to work things out with him for several months now but my feelings of love are not coming back and I need to leave so I can take care of me by myself. He new it was coming cause he didn't seem surprised. He just told me to take whatever I need for my appartment and take the time I need to get better. He said that he is going to take care of the house for a while and in a few months, he wants us to see where we're at in our lives and if my feelings haven't change, then he will buy back the house from me. He just wants me to be sure because of my major depression, he thinks it could play against him... I don't see it that way but I'm glad that he's taking it well and that I can take my time to get my life back on tracks before having the stress of the house transaction. It's such a relief for me, like weight off my shoulders! It's going to be even better once I'm gone, I'm sure of that! I have the appartment as october 1st so I should be settled in by mid-october.
I wanted to thank you so much for your support and words of encouragement. It really meant a lot to me and helped me get my courage to take action on my life. I will give you an update later to let you know how I'm doing once I'm on my own.