and welcome to the forum! There are no 'faux pauxs' here. It's good to hear you went back on your meds. Many people try to stop and invariably find it to be a mistake. If your Doc prescribes something and you take, always consult him/her before stopping. As you found out the side effects of stopping 'cold turkey' can often be terribly unsettling.
Remember that nearly all meds take some time to be fully effective and your system also takes time to adjust - particularly to sleep meds. I take Amitriptyline at bed time to help me get to sleep (it also helps with the Fibro pain) and it took a while for the drowsiness the next day to wear off but over time it has abated. Perhaps you will find the same with your Trazadone.
Just know that it all takes time. With regard to being laid off and the anxiety that comes with it - I was in this spot some 10 yrs ago with a family, house etc - try to stay in the moment, take one day at a time. Things ALWAYS work out!
If I find myself worrying I ask these questions: 'Can I do anything about the problem right now? Will it cause me trouble today?' The answer is more often than not, No. So then I give it up, let go of the worry and live in the moment. Worrying about something you cannot change is painful and unnecessary and will only add to your anxiety.
The Serenity Prayer has been used over and over but has true merit:
"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
Again, welcome to the forum and please, return whenever you like even if it's just to vent. There is a Daily Check-in 'sticky' forum here and I encourage you to use it. The people here are the best of the best in every way and have helped me more than they'll ever know. Keep coming back!
Finish each day and be done with it.
You have done what you could.
Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
Depression, Fibromyalgia, Tourettes, Bipolar, degenerative disc, sciatica, anxiety, RLS