As with everyone else here, life has really been horrible lately...and the other day I actually felt as tho not being around anymore would be a better answer for my family. I just feel like the stress has gotten to that point..and I am not sure if this will pass, or if it really is time for medication. I hate to take meds for every thing, but I kind of feel that I am at that point.
I am out of work on disability, in January I had to have major surgery and am still not really recovering from it as well as I should be. Our 10 year old has had to have several surgeries this year.. (5 due to kidney stones, some so big they have worn holes in urether),
I am having issues with my 20 year old son who is getting married ( his fiancee does not like me and will not let my son talk to anyone in our family..and even tho we have our 10 year old, HE is my BABY...any mom will know what I mean), I have recurring sinus infections.
one of our 23 year olds had to move home with her 4 year old son due to recent divorce, the other 23 year old has 2 children and a great marriage, but just graduated from nursing school and her husband just lost his job, so now they want to move home temporarily...
my mother informed me the other day that I sucked as a parent and put my step children ahead of my own and allowed my husband to treat my children badly ( which I find amusing since my husband's family makes the same claims.)
and I had to trade my car in in December, so I decided to get another truck so I could haul our camper because my husband's truck was having issues, and since I had seen a dtr. prior to getting my loan, the disability insurance I had would not cover anything when I had to go out for my surgery thusly putting me behind 6 car payments (at $450 a piece) when I finally got back to work.
And since I do home health care with a young man who is missing most of his skin...I can't go back to work as we are just passing infections back and forth ( can't wear gloves to work with him because they will stick to raw spots)...
And the stress just continues...
I can't sleep, appetite sucks ( but to be fair, it has been gone since my surgery anyway)...and on top of all of this FUN stuff, (hahahaha) I found out that I have a goiter on my thyroid. Not a big deal right? WRONG, 2 women in our family died from them as they grew INTO their throats, ( basically cutting off their airways) and not out as they do for most people...
So, enough for meds?
Sorry...just a bit stressed..thanks for any ideas..
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