Hey Lefty sorry to hear that you are in pain. I know your belief in god and also know that with His help you will be guided to do what is the best for you. You are in my prayers and thoughts. God bless and please keep us posted.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.