Hi - I am new here. Was on the depression/chat board for about 4 years, and unfortunately, it closed down. I suffered from Depression for about 40 years, and tried all different medications and finally found SAM-e, which I have been on now for a little over two years. It has been a Godsend. When I do get depressed, I am able to rebound quickly.
I think one of my issues that I have tried to get a handle on, is impulsiveness. I tend to get angry and lash out at others, if hot buttons are pushed. For example - a relative I care about e-mailed something that really hurt my feelings (or that I took as being offensive). I hate it when I do this - and jump to conclusions so quickly. I didn't "count to 10" and immediately just let my feelings out to her in anger. Some of the words I said to her were just awful, but I kept going on and on just because I felt so upset. I felt better, but alienated her. To this day, she still has not talked to me and said she does not want a relationship with me, which I have accepted.
I have tried all types of therapy, self-help books,medication..breathing exercices, anger-management and still I lash out from time to time. Not physically - but verbally such as e-mails. Does anyone else have this problem? I wish there was some way I could not do this, and learn some coping skills that perhaps have worked well for others. I am so tired of having poor impulse control and alienating others. Thanks for listening, and I am looking forward to getting to know you all. There seems to be a lot of really nice caring people here.
Post Edited (Rianna) : 5/14/2005 4:12:44 PM (GMT-6)