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older guy
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   Posted 9/15/2012 10:44 AM (GMT -6)   
hi my screen name is display.

i am feeling very down and depressed today. i seem to have a multitude of problems that are always with me. it is hard to just try and take things one day at a time.

the biggest problem is my unemployment. it has gone on for 11 months. next month i will run out of unemployment and have to fall back on my savings. really scary, although my sister (who i live with) says she is OK with me continuing to stay here. but i also need to say that i sometimes totally lose interest in the job search. i have applied to so many places and have heard very little from anyone. i have also sort of lost interest in applying for a job anywhere.

that is really my chief complaint. i feel as though if i got a job my life could get back on track.

meanwhile my biggest problem is BOREDOM. i just can't seem to find activities to make it through the day. and i feel guilty just sitting around.

one good thing is that my sister invited me out tonight to a downtown park to hang out. there is usually music and a flea market.

the depth of my depression really scares me. i know i am supposed to try and stay active but can't really seem to do so. it's like there is a giant wall for me to scale and i just stand there, unable to do anything.

thanks for listening.
Display

depression and anxiety
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cymbalta, lamotrigine, zyprexa, klonopin (for depression/bipolar)
crestor (for cholesterol)
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getting by
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   Posted 9/15/2012 11:43 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Display,

I know in a situation like this, it is hard to take life one day at a time, but that is what you need to do. Are you checking back with the places that you applied? Sometimes you really have to bug them, so I would occasionally check back with them once in a while.

Try meditation and mindfulness. It helps with the downtime. It keeps you grounded and feeling better.

Keep posting because it helps to get your feelings out. I really hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen...
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BnotAfraid
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   Posted 9/15/2012 1:09 PM (GMT -6)   
display,

I suggest you put an exercise routine in you daily flow. At least a 45min walk. This will lift your spirits and help with some of your down time.

This rest I repeat what Karen suggested.

Stay strong, change will come.

Trina
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Be still and know there is Peace.

Kabir says: "Student tell me, what is God? He is the breath inside the breath". from the poem Breath.
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;

older guy
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   Posted 9/15/2012 2:28 PM (GMT -6)   
i need to say more about what is going on.

i have been looking for a job for 11 months. nothing ever seems to work out. and i'm getting very tired of being disappointed. a prospect will come up, and i will do what is necessary to show my interest, then i hear nothing. time passes by slowly, but increasingly i have the feeling nothing is going to happen - and it doesn't!

i have a lot of feelings of dread about what will happen if i run out of money. that will be sometime next month. i do have about $9000 in savings i can begin to use. but it's scary to think about running out of that.

i sort of wonder if there is some reason God wants me to experience all this pain, and constant disappointment.

I saw my shrink this week - he strongly suggested trying to get out more with friends, and also to get involved in some sort of volunteer work. in other words, more interaction with people. but i don't know if i am going to be able to do this.

sometimes like today, depression is very scary. i am so sick of feeling down and depressed. i sometimes question if i can go on, feeling this bad every day.
Display

depression and anxiety
-----------------------------
cymbalta, lamotrigine, zyprexa, klonopin (for depression/bipolar)
crestor (for cholesterol)
doxazosin (for benign prostate hyperplasia)

getting by
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   Posted 9/15/2012 5:08 PM (GMT -6)   
I think your pdoc is right about getting out more. It will open different doors for you just from word of mouth. It is important to interact with other people. I know it is hard. I am going to be seeing my sister tomorrow. And her daughters and granddaughter. And I had to ask my friend to come with me or else I probably wouldn't go. And it is important that I go and get out. So I know how it feels when you are depressed, but we have to do these things. I feel a lot of negativity in your post. Negative thinking comes true if you don't think something positive. You are setting yourself up to fail when you think like this. Try to think positive thoughts. It really makes a difference. And the walking that Trina suggested. It really does help the way that you feel. Physically and mentally.

Keep trying, do not give up. There is hope and things do get better but we have to let them and help them along.

Hugs, Karen
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BnotAfraid
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   Posted 9/16/2012 9:32 AM (GMT -6)   
Display,

Karen and your doc is right, very important to get out and interact with people. Once of the main reason I feel is so God and work in your life. If you say home, he does not have much to work with.

Volunteer work is a great idea, I volunteer for local animal rescue group. I am a driver and transport the animals to new homes or foster homes or from the original locations. It is part time and I have lots of practice interacting with nice and not so nice people.

You could call a school, library, animal shelter, Volunteers of America, People shelter, Church and the list goes on. There is no shortage of help needed in this world, and it can open doors to other places in time. It looks good on a resume and makes nice references.

I know it is hard, try now to worry so much about the money, I have been out of work since 3/2011. some how we make the mortgage and float the utilities till next pay and nothing has been shut off. I keep looking something will come along.

Hang in there and get outside where life is.

Stay Strong

Trina
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Be still and know there is Peace.

Kabir says: "Student tell me, what is God? He is the breath inside the breath". from the poem Breath.
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;

greetingz
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   Posted 9/16/2012 12:07 PM (GMT -6)   
display said...


i sort of wonder if there is some reason God wants me to experience all this pain, and constant disappointment.

I saw my shrink this week - he strongly suggested trying to get out more with friends, and also to get involved in some sort of volunteer work. in other words, more interaction with people. but i don't know if i am going to be able to do this.

sometimes like today, depression is very scary. i am so sick of feeling down and depressed. i sometimes question if i can go on, feeling this bad every day.


May I make a suggestion that you enquire of God for answers as to why you are in this situation? I think your "shrink" was right in his assesment, but if you believe in God, also go there for help. I have had deep depression in my past so I understand where you are. I can tell you that when you come through this you will have your character increased, and you will be more tender to those others who suffer like things. Im rootin for you.

BnotAfraid
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   Posted 9/16/2012 12:54 PM (GMT -6)   
Display,

I wanted to share this with you. One of my favorite verses.

"But they that hope in the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles...

Isai 40:31

You only need a little bit of faith for God to hold your hand.

Trina
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Be still and know there is Peace.

Kabir says: "Student tell me, what is God? He is the breath inside the breath". from the poem Breath.
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;
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