Not feling very postive today

I am struggling with a positive outlook today. I try and tell myself each morning that today is a wonderful day, that Effexor is the miracle drug that will help me cope with depression, and that I like who I am. Well today I am catching myself in a lot of negative thought and talk and feeling quite unsettled about things in life. Trying to find my "happy place" but it is elusive today. Felt pretty good this morning when I got up but as the morning went on became less and less positive. I guess it is time to find a "closet" and ask my higher power to bring the light back into my day.

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cheer
if we dont ocassionally look back to where we came from we dont see the progress we made thats why docs are there and we see them to pick up the slack a little when we look back and ifriends help also
meds arent a cure all thier to balance you to be able to turn back around and see the future no matter what it brings just because we have docs and meds doesnt mean we arent going to have the ocassional bad day
it happens to people who arent on meds and seein docs you just have to gaze foward and smile to the uknown because with with the three fellows (meds,docs,n friends) we will percivere
your friend
Never Alone

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                          I have walked the road of recovery

Hi Randy,

I am sorry to hear you are feeling down today. I felt that way many a time. When I was on Zoloft, Lexapro, etc. I would feel like these would also be my "miracle" drugs and that I would finally be a normal person walking down the beach or park, like I have envisioned other people doing. I used to look at other people...and think..are they happy..they must be happier than I am..and then I would compare myself to them, and it never worked. I would then get in these cycles of negative thinking..and then I would panic..thinking.."well..nothing is helping me..what is wrong with these antiepressants..what is wrong with me..etc"

I then learned to take it one day at a time, and to not tell myself that "today would be a wonderful day", because I would be setting myself to feel that way every day, and even normal (when I say normal, I mean people who don't suffer from depression) people have down days as well. Instead, I would tell myself, "today will be the best day I can make of it, and with everything I can be, and what I have overcome". I hope this makes sense.

If you have some periods of days with negative talk..go with that talk..but then try to find out where the negative talk is coming from..and then talk to yourself as you would your own best friend (now, would you berate your best friend, or any friend) for having down days..or negative thoughts? Well..I don't think you would, because you seem like a very caring and kind person. So, now it is time to care and be nice to yourself. Tell yourself gently, that you are just having a rough day like we all do, and that you have come so far in life and coping skills, and that not everyone can do this! You have come a long way...be proud of you..and who you are. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

(((here is a soft hug))))

Randy,

I am blown away by the great comments of Never Along and Rianna. I won't ruin the moment by adding my $.02 . . . I couldn't have imagined a better response than these two offered. I just wanted to add my encouragement and wish you a better day tomorrow.

Blessings!

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In His Grip,