Posted 5/16/2005 4:42 PM (GMT -7)
I am sorry to hear you are feeling down today. I felt that way many a time. When I was on Zoloft, Lexapro, etc. I would feel like these would also be my "miracle" drugs and that I would finally be a normal person walking down the beach or park, like I have envisioned other people doing. I used to look at other people...and think..are they happy..they must be happier than I am..and then I would compare myself to them, and it never worked. I would then get in these cycles of negative thinking..and then I would panic..thinking.."well..nothing is helping me..what is wrong with these antiepressants..what is wrong with me..etc"
I then learned to take it one day at a time, and to not tell myself that "today would be a wonderful day", because I would be setting myself to feel that way every day, and even normal (when I say normal, I mean people who don't suffer from depression) people have down days as well. Instead, I would tell myself, "today will be the best day I can make of it, and with everything I can be, and what I have overcome". I hope this makes sense.
If you have some periods of days with negative talk..go with that talk..but then try to find out where the negative talk is coming from..and then talk to yourself as you would your own best friend (now, would you berate your best friend, or any friend) for having down days..or negative thoughts? Well..I don't think you would, because you seem like a very caring and kind person. So, now it is time to care and be nice to yourself. Tell yourself gently, that you are just having a rough day like we all do, and that you have come so far in life and coping skills, and that not everyone can do this! You have come a long way...be proud of you..and who you are. I hope tomorrow is a better day.
(((here is a soft hug))))