Venting a bit - a bit down today. I worked so hard to get an associates degree. Went part time, as I also worked. Went for four long years (when it normally takes two) and finally got the degree in 1997. I felt so proud, and thought I would keep going to college for a Bachelor's. Struggled to keep going with moderate depression at the time and a horrible break-up with an ex..kept going..even when family said I was taking "forever" and that I was living in a fantasy world..another 5 years..at the age of 41, I finally received my Bachelor degree.
Decided I would try to keep going and get a Master's in Social work, but when I saw how much debt I was in from nine years of college..I decided to not keep going. That I would (hopefully) get a decent paying position. When I received my degree two years ago..the job market and economy were not good and I went into customer service and inside sales because I really enjoy it. I thought I would eventually find something that pays a bit better because of the degrees. I thought college degrees opened doors..but I feel my education was wasted. I still struggle like I did before and live paycheck to paycheck. Sometimes I even have to ask my Dad for financial help, which is humiliating and embarrasing.
I try to go to interviews at positions that pay more, and I feel intimidated, like I am not "worthy" of higher salary. Does anyone feel like this? So, I stay in the same low salary positions, because I feel I am not good enough to make over $35,000 a year. Pretty bad..huh? Can anyone relate? Like they are not headed to where they want to be..because something gets in the way like self esteem, etc? Thanks for listening.