Boy can I ever relate to the being so overwhelmed that you get kind of 'frozen' in place and just do nothing. It sounds so much like me!
I have skills and ideas and have done some great projects in the past, and have anumber of 'incomplete' projects around my house - but just can't seem to motivate myself to finish them.
i start on one thing ( like sorting magazines) find a book and go to put it away, decide the bookshelves are dusty and go to get a rag - can't find the 'Endust' and get sidetracked by the huge laundry pile in the basement. I put a load of clothes in to wash, and take a wrinkled load out of the dryer (it's been there for two days) but it's underwear and towels, so it doesn't really matter if they're wrinkled. I take them upstairs to put away...While I'm folding clothes I start to play with the dog - and the next thing you know, nothing is done.
Most of the time, I have great intentions in the morning - but once I get my son off to school - unless I've been called in to work that day (I'm a substitute teacher) - by the time I get back from taking him to school, I'm already exhausted and lay down to take a nap or rest, and the next thing you know - the day is shot.
Either way - I look around my house, and it's a disaster - and yet, I can't really explain WHY?
I'm tired all the time, yet I (usually) get enough sleep at night.
I actually feel better, if more tired, on the days i work - because even though there is more required of me, the 'structure' of having to follow a teacher's schedule pushes aside all those posibilities and descision waiting at home - and gives me something concrete to follow.
somone above mentioned ADD, and I am an adult with ADD and Depression - if you are so easily distracted, you might look into it, too. Your name doesn't say for sure - but something gave me the idea you were female? Many, many women are misdiagnosed and/ or treated for Depression, when they are really ADD. and many women with ADD, also have depression, because of dealing with the frustration of untreated ADD for so many years! Almost every adult with ADD that I know, recognised it in themselves after reading about it, or having a relative or child who was diagnosed with it. Even if you DON'T have ADD - some of the behavioral techniques and ideas can be very helpful to someone dealing with depression - so it's worth learning a bit about it. Go to your public library or look up Sari Solden on the Web - she has written a number of excellent books about women and ADD that might help you, whether you DO have it or not.
Medication can help - but it's only part of the solution for any of these problems. You should not be afraid of medication - if you educate yourself about what you have and what you are taking, and are working with your doctor.
Much of Depression and/or ADD - or any other mental disorder is CHEMICAL. If your body isn't making or using the right blend of chemicals for itself, then what is wrong with providing them artificially? Why do we beat ourselves up for needing them? It's no different than providing someone with antihistamines because their body doesn't produce enough, making them sneeze - or taking an antacid to settle your stomach - or insulin for a diabetic. If someone is suffering, and the medical means exist to ease that suffering, it should be used!
By the way - congratulations on losing the weight! I have had a weight problem all my life, and the only thing that ever worked for me was Phen-Fen - remember that? I had NO problems with it, it worked well, no side effects. It also had the effect of balancing my ADD 'mental' chemistry as well (the stimulant in the Phentermine).
I would be very interested to hear how you did it, as well! It must have been a tough thing to do!
Hang in there - and feel free to 'vent' all you want - theres lots here who DO understand!