Well, I can understand abit of what you're feeling. Most of the time my H is very understanding and supportive though there are times he really doesn't "get it". That really irks me because I need to talk things out.
Here's an example. Lastweek we were talking about
our holiday at the cottage. I love the cottage but I also have reservations and fears about
going up there as it's out of my "safety zone." It's secluded and the neighbours are not close by...To me, that makes me feel abit uneasy because of the whole anxiety thing and not having control of my surroundings. Also he drives a standard and I can only drive automatic. We always take his car as I don't like to drive on the highways (or Freeways as you Americans call 'em!) so he does all the driving. I mentioned that 'what if' something happens at the cottage and I can't drive because the car is standard, he said back It won't happen so don't even worry about
it. Well Ya think?? Ofcourse that bugged me big time because he gets kidney stone attacks. We've headed to the hospital afew times in the past year and I'm afraid that he'll have an attack while at the cottage and I won't be able to drive his car. It was just a conversation, I was NOT freaking out nor getting anxious while talking about
this - HE kept on telling me to relax and stop over reacting! I wasn't at all - Finally I got ****ed off and basically told him that I have to be able to express my fears, acknowledge them, get them out so I KNOW what is going on, some plan just incase!!! His response back to me was, we'll call 911. Don't worry about
it. ...Well, after that I said, I won't. Forget it.
Yeah, so your husband doesn't understand the whole depression/anxiety thing that happens inside our heads! When something is bugging us, we have to discuss it! What I do most of the time?? I exclude him from this stuff. Jump online, talk to somebody, post about
it - My husband probably is GLAD I handle it this way now as he doesn't have to deal with it too much. Maybe just don't go to him with this stuff and talk to your friends more.
He loves you Dbab, don't ever doubt that...Men are fixers and all they want to do is FIX the problem, but we can't be fixed by our H's!! That makes them feel frustrated as they hate seeing us like we are during our lowest times...Accept him as he is - quirks and all - and just stay away from him when he acts like a big boob! LOL! Make a joke of it, that is what I do now.
Hope this helps abit.