Don't get me wrong, I know its necessary but it is just taking too much out of me. My emotions are just so up and down because I have to have this front for everyone. Showing emotions are a big
in my house and my hubby tells me that I'm so negative so I have to pretend that everything is okay, work is so stressful but I can't let anything show there either. I stood in my shower for 45 minutes last night crying non stop because that is the only place where I can go to be alone. I just have the feeling of this weight on me and my feelings are so trapped. It makes me more depressed and anxious. I'm so scared that if I continue like this, one day I'm just going to crack.